WRITE A LETTER TO THESE PEOPLE:
Day 1 — Your bestfriend [June 14th]
Kh.
Yeah, we've been through the rough times. In fact, I remember I time where I actually hated you. Well, that's gone now and you've become something like my light in a dark day. I rely on you for somethings and you rely on me as well. You've always been there for me, even though I've pushed you away, and for that, I say thank you. You've been the best you can be for me and all I can do is return the favour.
Mh.
I hate how most of our conversations just die down to nothing. But, whatthehell. It's not like I'm a focal point in your life, haha. All that really matters is that you know I'm here for you, no matter what. You better not take my superawesomesexy CookieMonster hat from me tomorrow ! D:< .
Bestie or biffle. You both mean a lot to me.
Day 2 — Your Crush [June 15th]
At.
You could say I "accidentally" ended up liking you, but then again, not much can be called an accident these days. People always say that I go for looks. Truth is, I haven't seen you once yet. Not once. And you know what? That's fine by me. I remember when I told you like you. I think you know exactly what I meant, but refused to see it as the truth. I'm fine with that as well, because, considering the relationship we currently have, it'd be a bit awkward... I don't know, haha. Well, we've been texting for what, two months straight? Give or take, lol. Asshole, wake up and text back ! ♥
Day 3 — Your parents [June 16th]
Mother and father.
I'm sorry I'm not the perfect, prodigal son you wanted. Hell, no one in this world is perfect. All I ever wanted was for you to appreciate the effort I put into things. I realized by the 7th grade that you didn't really care. As much as you said you did, I was nothing to you. That was when I stopped giving caring. If you haven't realized, I stopped caring about everything that has to do with this family. Don't worry. You don't have to deal with me for much longer. As soon as I can, I'm leaving. Congratulations, mother and father. You have your perfect family now that I'm out of the picture.
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative) [June 17th]
Dt
Hey, there ! Long time no see... even though it's only been a couple days, haha. I miss you a lot... I wish you didn't live so far away! Gosh, get your parents to move up north or something. I dunno. Maybe we can go bra shopping again ! Uber awesome. And I'll vlog the entire time ! Speaking of which, wanna start vlogging with me? Likeee, we can edit 'em and put 'em together ! That would be totally badass, huh?! Remember Saturday? Fagbum, I SPOON YOU ! Lmfao, aah, those were the good ole' days. Then REVERSE SPOON? LOLOL, aah, good times. I miss you and your fat ass, yeh big baby! Come visit me soooooooooooooon. It's your turn now :]. Love you lots, can't wait to see you again ♥
Day 5 — Your dreams [June 18th]
Dreams
Why do you have to make my life so complicated? What have I ever done to you? I'm sick and tired of chasing you. I have an idea, though. How about you tell me where you're gonna be, say 7 p.m. tomorrow night, and we'll meet up and have a little chat? Cuz, seriously speaking, this shit's getting way to out of hand. Why don't you show something that's actually obtainable?
Day 6 — A stranger [June 19th]
Stranger.
You're strange.
kthxbai.
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush [June 20th]
Tv
Kso, there are plenty of things I could say, but I'd rather not. Mainly cuz I'm tired like shit and most of it will come out rude I'm just gonna get straight to the point. 1 - I said I don't like you, not that I never did. 2 - I do miss "us" sometimes. 3 - I believe it's time for you to forge a path forward and stop dwelling on what was. Maybe I'll continue this later, who knows.
I hope you re-read this:
"I let you go, not because I don't love you, but because it's the only way I can prove that I can do anything to make you happy... even if it is the greatest pain."
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend [June 21st]
Dq
Hihi ! It's been a while since we've had a late night convo on AIM. I log on every day, just so I can talk to you. See how much I love you? LOL. kso, you said you were coming up during the summer... well, guess what? IT'S SUMMER TIME! Now, kindly get yer ass up North, please and thank you ! Oh, and when you do, let me know; I go meet you at the airport! First thing we're gonna do is go to Wonderland. Yeeeaaaaaaap, the iNFAMOUS Wonderland. Oh, and we definitely need to hit up the movies. Yeah, I'm making plans without you! LOL. Hey, cut me some slack, I'm excited. Can't wait to see youu! Much loveee. ♥
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet [June 22nd]
Lt
Hey ! Whaaaaaaaaaatssssupp. Do you happen to have my sandwich ready yet? I'm uhh, kinda hungry yehknow... I'm a growing boy, what do you want from me?... okay, well, I'm not growing anymore, but I'm growing on the inside ! Haha, we no talk as much as last year, but hey; it's the times that we do that count. Well, Imma get off Blogspot for now. When I go down to Georgia, my sandwich better be good to go ! Remember; extra meat, extra mayo, extra olives. Love you, thanks for being there for me ♥
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to [June 23rd]
Ar
Hey, there. Yeah, we don't talk much... Hell, we barely talk at all, but the funny thing is, when we do, we go on for hours on end, right up until you go to sleep. I guess that's the upside to it, right? We don't talk for days, weeks, months even, but when we do, we don't stop, haha. You know, sometimes I wonder what could have been. A year ago in April, we split. It was probably the worst month for me. I felt as if the world was crashing down around me, but I got back up. It took some time, but I did. You taught me something. You showed me that no matter how hard life pushes you, no matter how easy it feels to give up, you need to fight back against all odds. Thank you, I'll always love you.
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to [June 24th]
Ct
November. November 12th. November 12th, 2009. That was the day you left us. You didn't deserve this. You didn't deserve to leave like this, to live life so short. God shouldn't have done this to you. You deserved to be here, with us, with Alice, with Michelle, with your sister, Elizabeth. I guess there isn't much anyone can do. It's been quite some time now, and everyone's been slowly but surely moving past it all. However, without a doubt, everyone has a special place in their heart, just for you. If there was one thing I learned from this, from that day, it's live life to the fullest extent. You don't know when it's all going to change. Miss you lots. I'm sure I'm not the only one either.
R.i.P. Catherine Tran [ 1993 - 2009 ]
Gone but not forgotten.
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain [June 25th]
Ar
Well, hello again. If there's one thing I'll always remember from our relationship, minus the failed Valentine's Day date, it's the three months following the end of it all. You could say I was depressed... on a whole 'nother level. Three months were wasted, brooding. I still remember that day clearly, as clear as the bright blue morning sky. I guess that I can say that being with you has definitely toughened me up emotionally. I can hold my own against the challenges that God throws at me. Thank you, for being the silver lining in my life. Thank you for being you. Thank you for opening my heart. Thank you for showing me the world.
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you [June 26th]
Person I wish could forgive me
Please forgive me. I don't know who you are, but I would much appreciate it if you did. :]
Muchas gracias
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from [June 27th]
Ld
I had a hard time picking out who to write to for this one, but yes. We have definitely drifted apart. I remember when we would stay up until 2 in the morning, talking about random shit that has absolutely nothing to do with anything! Those were the days... can you imagine if you and I had actually gone past the "dealing" stage? How strange that would be? I mean, compare all the people you hang out with and all the people I hang out with. And besides, I'm two years older than you, which would mean I'd be two years older than your friends too, haha. A w k w a r d O_O... It would've been nice if you had given me a chance though... But oh well. The past is the past. It's over. Hope yous and Pd have a long lasting relationship !
Day 15 — The person you miss the most [June 28th]
Dt
Why, haiithurr. What is up? Yes, I miss you a lot. You be down South and I be up in Canada... lame ass Canada with my psychopathic grandmother and don't-give-a-shit parents. How's your doggy? Too bad you had her neutered. Her and Toto could've made some awesome puppies, lol. Anyways, my dad's bitching at me 'cause I got a 56.3% in Functions. Douche, I told him I'd take the Uni/College prep course first, but he thought it'd be a waste of time. Who was the wrong one? Blahblahblah, don't you just hate it when your parents bitch at you about your grades? Yeesh. Anyways, can't wait to see you. I'm getting my G2 in November, so maybe I can visit you soon? Hope you come to Canada soontimes ! Miss youuu ♥
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country [June 29th]
Ah
Waddaaaap, bruh. Long time, eh? Haha. You still obsessed with Linh? LOL. Sorry for exposing. Anyways, maybe I'll stop by when I head down to visit her, haha. I'll see if I can convince her to come with me. We shall see... no guarantees ! LOL. If anything, I'll try to get her to kiss a napkin or something so I can give it to you... LOL BURN. xD
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood [June 30th]
Person from my childhood
I don't remember you because I never had one.
Sorry.
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be [July 1st]
All you Koreans, specifically Taeyang
Why the bloody hell must you be so talented? You know, I sometimes wonder what life would've been like if I were Korean. Would I look better? Would I be talented in any way? I mean, look at Terry akak KrNfx. The man's a mad beat boxer. Know what "KrNFx" stands for? Korean Effects. How bloody bullshit is that? I swear, ALL Koreans have some sort of talent, or look good. Fml, why can't I be Korean? * sad face *
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad [July 2nd]
At
Yes, you pester my mind... whatever the fuck "pesters" mean... I think it's "to bother"? Ah, beats me. Anyways... I SAW YOU TODAY. Yes, I tumblogged about it. It was so epic. And I'm sorry for forgetting your hat... again... And yeah. I'm pretty sure I'm gonna end up mentioning you again later on, so I figured I'd cut this one shot. Thinny, wake up and text me back !
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest [July 3rd]
Ar
Yes, the honor of "breaking my heart the hardest" goes to you. Losing you just tore me apart. I was a total wreck for a good three months. I don't know... our relationship was one I had always dreamed of... I just never thought it could end so suddenly... but, you know what? I deserved it. I took you for granted and I faced the consequence. Punishment is bliss. I still believe love is God's way of toying with our minds. I hope you're well. Love you. ♥
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression [July 4th]
My boss
Yes, I judged you by your first impression. My thoughts? You are a dick. My thoughts now? You are a dick.
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to [July 5th]
Tv
I wanna give you another chance. I really do. But I can't find it in me to trust you enough anymore. That and I do kinda like her now, but that has nothing to do with what happened. We talked for a good 4 months? More? I don't know, I lost track. Sorry.
Day 23 — The last person you kissed [July 6th]
Jr
We've been there, we've had our time, and you know what? It was fun while it lasted. We had our fair share of fond memories. But that time has come and gone. It's time to move past it all. What happened at the Pmall and then the party after was fun, it felt good to reconnect, but we can't simply go back. I like someone, you like someone... it just doesn't work that way. I'm sorry, but it's just the way it has to be.
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory [July 7th]
Ar
Hey, you ! Here's another one for yah! The title of this letter is a lie, kinda. You didn't give me a memory, you gave me a collection of memories. Memories that I will hold dearly for the rest of my life. To start off, remember that one time in the snow? We were outside after school and I was chasing you around? Haha, we had a mini snow ball fight! I GOTCHU! Anyways, I decided to stop after I saw Garcia grinning at me through a window... creeper, haha. Next, do you remember that one time we were walking along Hwy 7? Angelica was with us and she had to get some money for me? That damned trucker drove straight through a huge ass puddle and soaked the two of us more than it did Angie? Haha, I remember the look you had on your face when I came back from Greg's house with a fresh shirt. The most fondest memory, however, was the very first day I met you. I remember I tried so hard to get you to talk to me... and you flat out ignored me every single time, thinking I was a "weird Asian kid". Yes, those were your exact words, haha. God, I miss you. I miss you in the way that a friend would. I haven't seen you in a while, and if I could, I'd like to chill with you one more time before you move away. Love you always. ♥
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times [July 8th]
Great grandma
I wish I could be with you in Los Angeles right now. Life would have no meaning without you. I can't say anything because I'm at a loss for words. My prayers are with you. I love you.
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to [July 9th]
I can honestly say I don't remember the last person I made a pinky promise to.
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day [July 10th]
I forgot your name, sorry. :$
Anyways, we chilled on Kathy's birthday last Wednesday at Wonderland. Fun times, lol. They were talking about random shit and we were talking about the difference between college and university tuition. Aren't we nerds? xD
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life [July 11th]
Ar
Yes, I'm writing to you... for the 1691332987459375th time... LOL. You changed my life, opened my eyes, opened my heart, opened doors. I personally think that without you, I wouldn't be where I am today, I wouldn't be the person I am today and for that I thank you. I thank you for the happiness you showed me, for the bitterness within me you took away, for the love you showed me, for the pain you put me through, because without all that, I'd still be the same sad, bitter, heartless person that I was for 15 years of my life.
...
Oh, and happy birthday ! ;D
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to [July 12th]
At
Yes, I wanna tell you that I like you. A lot. I wanna tell you that I wanna be with you. A lot. But it seems that it won't make a difference. You and I won't work out. You and I won't be together. You won't like me like that. We'll always be friends. Guess I gotta suck it up and move on.
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror [July 13th]
One day, I'll have to realize that I'm never going to have everything. I'm never going to have that girl I've always dreamed of being with. I'm never going to have the life I've always wanted to live. I'm never going to be that person I've always wanted to be. Hell, I'm never going to have anything I've ever wanted. The fact of the matter is, life was never meant to be easy. We need to fight through it, fight through every drop of blood to see the light on the other side of the tunnel. That's exactly what I'm doing, and I'll keep fighting until there's no fight left in me. I'll fight for that girl I've always dreamed of being with. I'll fight to live that life I've always wanted to live. I'll fight to be that person I've always wanted to be. And so what if I don't get it all. At least I can stand up at the end of the day and say, "I tried". I may not have everything I want, the way I want it, but at least I'll have the next closest thing to it. At least I'll have a girl to love me for who I am. At least I'll have a life that I'll enjoy living. At least I can be a person I'm comfortable with being. At least I tried.